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my princess...
i don't think he needs an introduction. if you talk to me for even just 10 minutes or so you will hear about him at some point. simply put he is the basis of everything about me there is. he's rewritten my entire being and whatever.
that being said, that's not exactly telling the reasons for that. and honestly, i have no idea what to tell you there. when i first encountered izaya, i was just a 12 year old who was starting to discover the cracks in my past and who i was. when i say he rewrote who i am, i really do mean it. i don't remember much of who i was before this, and my memories are all very fuzzy. you could say i was born from izaya in a way. (i won't elaborate there.)
i had been interested in psychology for a few years before i had first watched durarara. i think that common interest between me and izaya was one of the things that made my fascination with him so strong. i thought he was so annoying... and yet so attractive. mind you, i had just got out of a death note hyperfixation where i had a crush on l lawliet, which was most definitely influenced by my crush on pete wentz of fall out boy. so then i saw izaya who looked like he could be a poster boy emo (especially in middle/high school... like girl the chain wallet? if they had hot topic in japan you know he would have had a ball in there😭🙏) and well i mean i didn't stand a chance.
within the first like week or so of starting that damn series i was already googling awful shit like 'izaya orihara sexy' and other things a 12/13 year old didn't need to be googling. i was in homeschool at the time and i remember during our meetings i'd literally just turn the volume down and spend my entire time looking at pictures of izaya online. i was so obsessed bro.
and i still am. 😟
i went to corpus christi a few years back with a friend to visit the selena museum. (really cool btw but man it feels pretty weird) as we're at lunch at this poke restaurant i pull my phone out and open up this mobage that's having a durarara collab just so i can be greeted by izaya. there is no hope for me.
all jokes aside i love izaya very much. 👨❤️💋👨 he is my beautiful angel princess wife and as freakish and unsettling he is he is still my wife at the end of the day. he's so cute... and so beautiful... and a lot of other things i shouldn't say on here to preserve my image...
izaya gap moe is so strong. it's so strong (said twice). all the art for the show portays him as this really cool and dark and brooding guy with this evil smirk and all that and then you get in the show and. sure he has his serious moments and he can get his shit together when he needs to but then Boom now he's a hag who walks around in bunny slippers and makes his secretary finish crossword puzzles he cant figure out the last of the words to. he's so cute. every time izaya does something moe i have to hold back the strong urge to bash my skull into the nearest wall or my desk.
aoughhhhh...... izaya my angel... (letting out inhuman noises)
i struggle to sound intelligent when it comes to talking about izaya because i always sound braindead and stupid (because i am) but he is like...truly the best character of all time... he's the coolest he's the cutest he's the sexiest he's the best....... i'm going to sound dumb and stupid saying this because there's so many other characters that are just like this but they aren't izaya so it doesn't matter to me but he is so human... the way izaya acts sometimes feels like it's not narita writing him but rather izaya himself somehow possessing narita. someone like izaya you want to peer into their mind and see just what exactly goes on inside it but even in the third person with a narrator who normally gives insight into the characters' thoughts and feelings, there's barely any of that for izaya in the novels.
let me use an example. there's a scene from back in raijin days where izaya first meets shinra in middle school. izaya's unusually snappy at him and the narration says something along the lines of 'even izaya himself was shocked at how quick he was to reply like this' highlighting izaya's desire to maintain some level of distance between people at all times. but he's only human himself so he can't help but have some of that side of him accidentally show itself.
but i'm getting ahead of myself. let's compare that to a scene from volume 9 aka the izaya bible. this scene was cut from the anime because shuka sucks and they've got some weird grudge against izaya IDK. anyways it takes place where izaya's imagining shinra (his only real friend) actually being angry/somewhat hating him. and izaya laughs at first. but then he punches a telephone pole. there is no insight given into his emotions or thoughts here. actually, the narrator asks something along the lines of 'what kind of expression was izaya making? nobody would know.'
so i think it's very interesting that even when it's someone else narrating, izaya still manages to hide his true nature and only present what he wants the world to see.
i didn't actually plan on getting into so much detail on this page. this was supposed to be just me gushing over izaya and whatnot. so it's not as in depth as i'd like it to be... but still. i hope it provides some insight into what kind of person izaya orihara is and why i love him as much as i do. 🙏
i don't want you all thinking that all of my thoughts on izaya are really insightful and well thought out though. the thing about liking izaya is that it causes a really deadly disease as well. i'll leave you with this image. please make your own conclusions.
(go check out my izaya shrine for more fun stuff)
